Friday, 15 June 2018

recent musings

Shame, in January I was pumped to do my 'blogger project' where I post at least twice a month, showcasing some creative writing, but I only posted once last month, and it's already mid-June. I would say that 2018 has gone fast, but I don't think that I can ask the question: "where has the time gone???" because I know exactly where it's gone. I can recall significant feelings and things happening month by month. Squashed together, it's a bit of a blur. Stretched out, the memories are almost tangible. 

i am finally free.


art by Brianna Rose Brooks (link 2 website)

I officially moved out of uni on Sunday the 10th (sad face) and moving back into a bedroom that was once all I ever knew is so weird, especially after embodying and collecting different experiences and changing, perhaps physically but also internally, as a result.

I have been feeling so content lately - I've done a thing which I never thought would be a 'me' thing at all, but I've gone and got myself a job, and I've only had one shift, but I feel so lucky and excited to continue. (I'll see if this feeling remains after a couple of weeks lol). Having the structure of a casual but well-paid job is contributing to my contentedness because some days I can wake up knowing that I'm just on holiday, that I've earned this break. But I am also comforted by the fact that a couple days a week I'll be working, securing myself financially to keep up with my spendaholic lifestyle.



Lol yes I am living the HUJI life because why not! Above is a very long reading list I got excited about last year after literally flipping page through page of this book called "1001 BOOKS YOU NEED TO READ BEFORE YOU DIE" - which was a compilation of books from around c.850 to the noughties! Loads of them I have already read, or have on my shelf, or are books by authors I have read widely from. So I tried to make this list as broad as possible - most of them I have never heard of or come close to reading, but I am so excited to get started. I did have a fantasy of ploughing through these in 2018, but it's June already and I've only read one...

Some of these may be hard to make out, but here are a couple I'm looking forward to reading, whenever that may be!
  1. The Rainbow (1915) and Women in Love (1920) by D.H. Lawrence
  2. Almost Transparent Blue (1976) by Ryu Murakami
  3. The Book of Laughter and Forgetting (1979) by Milan Kunder
  4. Beloved (1987) by Toni Morrison

With all this being said, here are some of my recent/current reads:



So one of the books I've actually read from my very long reading list is Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie's Half of a Yellow Sun. I don't want to turn this blog post into a book review, but this book was simply fantastic. It is immersive, tragic, funny, unsettling. Adichie writes in such a way that her books are an escape. You literally identify with each of her characters so much that when the book finishes you still want to check up on them after a few days. Like I wonder what Ugwu's doing with his life, and how is Baby doing? I'll never know, because all books must come to an end. Chimamanda will forever be one of my favourite authors. Two years ago, I wrote a blog post about her book Americanah which literally changed my life. Purple Hibiscus, the first book I ever read by her is also deliciously beautiful. I would definitely recommend her stuff!

Jackie Kay's collection of short stories called Reality, Reality is my all-time favourite collection of short-stories. I should probably broaden by horizon a bit and check out more short-fiction, but for now, I'm going to indulge in her other collections - like her first called Why Don't You Stop Talking (2011). Her stories in Reality, Reality both break my heart and tug at its strings. One of the reviews talked about her representation of 'human fragility', and the idea of 'human fragility' spoke to me a lot, because each of Kay's stories communicates this subtle delicacy of human emotion and psychology in a way that leaves you, literally, heartbroken when finished. Absolutely amazing. 


I wont go into the rest of the books, but have any of you heard of them or have read them? Would love to hear your opinions! Also the two magazines are VICE's Dystopia and Utopia Issue, which I can't wait to read more of, and a small zine called 'THIS GUISE', curated by the babe Faith Alyward. It is beautiful, sexy, psychedelic and beautifully put together. 

Here's a few pics of me being a mug in my last few days in Brighton:


I look forward to posting a bit more now that it's the summer, (she says hopefully). Wow. I've been waiting for the summer holidays since January, I kid you not. It's such a massive sigh of relief knowing that I've finished first year, that I have lots more to anticipate. I managed to pass this year with firsts as well, which I'm proud of! But I must admit, compared to some of my friends in different universities, I would say that I have been eased in quite a bit. I feel prepared to be chucked into the deep end for second year though. No surprises! It's going to be difficult as fuck!

I've been listening to the album 'Fatou' by Fatoumata Diawara on repeat for the last few days. If you're a folk-person, or can occasionally listen to folk music, then I urge you to try out this album. It's soothing, tribal, calming but also makes you want to dance and move your body. My favourites are Makoun OumouBakonoba and Bissa, but the whole album is so so flawless, and she is so gorgeous. Please give it a listen!


Been feeling quite out of the loop with blogger right now. Blogger buddies where you at? Hope everyone is doing well, executing their goals, drinking enough water, staying positive. Sending love where ever you are in your journey. 


(a cute pic from Brighton)

Hope you enjoyed this post! ~peace out~ and see you in the next one.
Zoe xo