Tuesday, 6 March 2018

the law of attraction // my spiritual beliefs

We are all susceptible to the laws which govern the Universe. According to this source anyway. "It is the Law of Attraction which uses the power of the mind to translate whatever is in our thoughts and materialize them into reality."

I have been thinking about this a lot recently. Ironically enough, right before I started writing this, I was going through some made up scenarios in my head where I had had conflict with someone at my new job (you know, as you do) and I had to stop myself. Why was I wallowing in all of this negative fiction? Surely the more I think about it, the more likely I am to navigate that energy and push it into real life? If you go into something with positive energy, with confidence and collectedness, whatever path you follow will be smooth and open. Less of a bumpy ride. I am so incredibly susceptible to negative aura. One mistake, one awkward glance and I feel like a crushed petal and have to work really hard to shake it all off and feel full again. So weird. I'm really working on it though. And that's why I wanted to talk about the Law of Attraction.

I was always familiar with this concept but have never truly started thinking about it deeply until now. I also think my favourite youtuber whom I've mentioned on here before - Hitomi Mochizuki - is the main reason I am getting into this state of mind. All you need to do is watch one of her videos where she discusses spirituality or mindfulness to know what she is about. I know it's already March, but I was thinking about making a vision-board for this year, or perhaps my 19th year - my last year of teenhood (fuck, my heart just teared up a bit). All of the photos below represent things that I want to attract. This may look like a regular mood-board that I always post on here, but I've really tried to let go of just choosing something aesthetically pleasing and instead focus more on how much I am attracted to what I feel it represents. The size of the photos represent the things/vibes/attractions most important to me.

In a nutshell:
light. meditation. midfullness. spirituality.
calm. nature. environment. ethics. love - (in all its forms).
minimalism. needs over desires. focus. being.
starting. continuity. fearlessness.
fun. street smart. body positivity. sexual spirituality.
energy. present. feeling. going for it. executing goals. 

These photos could go on for longer to be honest. I just want to attract positive and calm energies into my life. I've always felt detached from mainstream religion. I feel slightly bad about this because I was christened when I was a baby. My grandparents are religious which meant that my parents grew up having to go to church etc. But they never really passed it onto me, which I'm grateful for I guess. It's been interesting going from believing in God as a child, to agnosticism throughout adolescence to scrapping all of it in the present and thinking about spirituality. 

I guess the term "spirituality" can be quite a buzz word sometimes. The type of spirituality I'm referring to is the act of connecting with one's spirit, particularly through practices such as meditation or yoga, or just anything that allows you to drop into the present moment and feel wholesome as one body, mind and spirit. I don't know enough about Buddhism, but some of the practices I'm interested in definitely stem from this religion, and I want to make it my aim, when I have time, to look into it all and learn. 

Ultimately, I've found that I don't worship a God or an individual higher spirit, but I worship energy. I feel like it's a really weird thing to say, but I am always so conscious and aware how energy flows through and around me, whatever the environment. Sometimes these feelings are activated intensely when I'm in nature, for example. I'm still getting to terms with defining this feeling, but that's where I am at the moment. Hitomi has a really amazing video called "What the F@q is Spirituality ??" that's pretty amazing at explaining this in a brief but really informative way. 

I would definitely check it out! She's just such an amazing soul. I especially liked when she mentioned how there are people who want to be happy but their environments just aren't supportive of it, but there are also people who are safe, nourished and surrounded by so much abundance and material things and have the opportunity for growth and success in the physical world, but in the mental and spiritual realms there's still so much darkness.

So yes. This is where I am on the 6th of March 2018, 17:04PM. How is everyone else doing? I hope this gave you food for thought, and I would love to know what your spiritual beliefs are, whether you have them or not! And remember the fundamental Law of Attraction: if it's on your mind, it'll be in your reality.

ALSO, you've probably been on Google today no doubt, and you might have seen that it is Gabriel García Márquez's 91st birthday. If you didn't know, he is a Colombian novelist, short-story writer, screenwriter and journalist who passed away in 2014. I am bringing him up because the last book I read for pleasure that made me really feel something was his novel Love in the Time of Cholera. I can't even begin to explain how beautiful this book was. How intense and sensual the imagery, the narrative and the characters were. It is a novel about love in all its forms. It is about death, absence, connection, emotion, unrequited feelings, being intensely in love, wealth, power, happiness, family. I love how this book came into my life. A girl I knew of but had never met said on her Instagram that she was giving away loads of books so I said yesss pleaseee and she invited me over to her house with my sister, and we just took a whole bags worth of books, and Márquez's novel happened to be one. That was in the summer, and I didn't get round to reading it until late last year. But I knew within the first couple of pages that it would affect me in some way. I literally said that out loud to myself when I was reading it. I loved it so much that when I finished it, I made a Google Docs document just full of all of the sentences I had underlined while reading that I thought were beautiful. I shall share some with you in honour of this amazing writer who has inspired me with his words!

“He was awakened by sadness. Not the sadness he had felt that morning when he stood before the corpse of his friend, but the invisible cloud that would saturate his soul after his siesta and which he interpreted as divine notification that he was living his final afternoons.”

“She felt free for the first time, she felt herself befriended and protected, her lungs full of the air of liberty, which restored her tranquility and her will to live.”

“He pursued her breathlessly.”

“To him she seemed so beautiful, so seductive, so different from ordinary people, that he could not understand why no one was as disturbed as he by the clicking of her heels on the paving stones, why no one else’s heart was wild with the breeze stirred by the sighs of her veils, why everyone did not go mad with the movements of her braid, the flight of her hands, the gold of her laughter.”

“She thought it was bad luck to have a clothed man in the house.”

“The problem with marriage is that it ends every night after making love, and it must be rebuilt every morning before breakfast.”

These are just a few snippets. I would very much recommend reading this book! Anyways, that's all for today I guess. I hope you enjoyed this post! Stay executing your goals and blocking out any negativity this week. You got this. ~peace out~ and see you in the next one! Zoe xo