Monday, 26 October 2015

My visions for the future // Outfits of the past

THANK THE HEAVENS that it is half-term right now. A whole week off! Not that it will be spent doing absolutely nothing like I wish it could, but I'm thankful that I have some time to well, not be in school. Sometimes you just need to get away from that dreadful place, am I right?

Anyways, strangely enough, I have been enjoying the "wearing-your-own-clothes-to-sixth-form" part of college recently. At first I hated it because I was either wearing the same pair of jeans everyday, or literally wearing every item in my wardrobe during the first week. But I've sorta got the hang of mixing and matching and putting together preppy, simple outfits. It's pretty fun to be honest. I wore these two outfits last week. The first outfit was a bit ambitious in the sense that I'd normally wear it out somewhere, but I was kinda bored so I whipped up the over sized jean jacket with the skirt look:

The skirt was thrifted, the jacket is from the Vintage Basement, (located in Bricklane) the shirt from golfwang and the shoes from a boutique! That was helpful haha.

The badge says "GUARD" although I'm not actually a guard for anything, I just bought it from a garage sale because it was 20p!

I like this second outfit because of its simplicity. I wore this on Friday and I was just developing an annoying cold so the turtleneck came in handy! 

The shirt/jacket/whatever-you-call-it thing was thrifted. It is corduroy, soft and incredibly comfortable. The turtle neck is from a vintage shop. It's my older sisters and she recently just visited from Amsterdam and threatened to take it back, but I must have a way with words because she's taking it back when she visits around Christmas time instead of now. Phew! I love this top so so so much so I'm glad we still have a couple of months together. *tears up.* What you can't see in these photographs is that it's actually quite sparkly and it has a hole in the back! Not an accidental hole, an actual hole as part of the design. It's really pretty. The trousers are from a vintage shop in Amsterdam and I wear them all the time despite the fact that that it pinches my waist a lot. 

I will do more of these soon!

It's kind of a tradition for me to make vision boards whenever I feel the time is right. Whenever I feel uninspired. I just made one dedicated to the year of 2016. I have a good feeling about next year and I hope my subtle positivity for it rubs off into the new year. What I do to start it off is get out my notebook and write down words that relate to what I want for my chosen time period. For example "Money", "Fashion". "Confidence" or something like that. Then I get out the massive bag of magazines that I have stored underneath my bed and flip through and cut out! I cut out words, pictures - anything! Then I stick it all on an A3 sheet of paper and up it goes on my bedroom wall. I see it everyday and am then reminded of all of the goals I want to achieve and get this weird rush of motivation. It's also good if you're in a confused state and you really just want to know where your priorities and goals lie. Good way to get inspired and creative too. Here's my one:

I think it speaks for itself really. (if you can read it!) These are my goals for the next year. To get a job, make money, contribute to things, meet new people. I like the connotations of "wake up and smell the roses" - I see it as telling me to wake up and be positive or see the good in a fresh new day. *lol cringe* 2016 is the wondrous year I turn **17!!!** as well, so I chucked that in there. 


Sorry for this unnecessarily long post but I hope it threw waves of positivity your way! PEACE OUT lovelies and see you in the next post! 

Saturday, 17 October 2015

I wish I wrote how I thought

I stumbled upon an old notebook I possessed during the ghastly year of 2014. It wasn't an actual diary - half of it is boring maths sums and over ambitious 'to do' lists. But there was this piece I wrote which started with "I really wish I could write how I thought." I think what I was trying to say is that I had a strong desire to write with all the key ingredients of a flowing and fluent piece of writing - without having to stop and think and constantly correct.  It is in no way profound or that well-written (it was 2014 to be fair) but I was obviously feeling a sense of discomfort and confusion in the way I expressed myself. It kinda makes me laugh, I don't know why. Maybe it's my present self mocking how dramatic and narrow-minded my past self was. Anyways, this is how it was written:

"I really wish I could write how I thought,
I wish that when I'm feeling strongly about something - whether it be
sadness, happiness, love; I can put the emotions down onto paper
and make it sound beautiful.
I'm even having trouble getting my
thoughts down now.
I can't write effortlessly about
something I'm passionate about
because the words don't come
easy. I end up correcting words
I have already written down, 
changing them to something
else to make it sound nicer,
more poetic. But what's the point
in that? I have all these thoughts
and beautiful words to put down
but they end up changing 
because they don't sound right,
when just a minute ago
they were all in my head, laid
out so perfectly, structured so 
neatly, like the lines of a spider's 
web. See that?! I had to think of
that simile, play it
it out in my head to make sure
it sounded pleasant and creative, 
but in my head my brain
came up with a metaphor 
effortlessly and gracefully. This
is why I wish I wrote how I 

Saturday, 3 October 2015

feminine energy in October and lyrical journaling

It's only the beginning, but there's something so comforting about the month of October. It reminds me of thick woollen jumpers and chilly crisp mornings. It's so secretly festive and starts off with days of breezy sunshine and ends with a balance of sharp winds and still air. It's just so beautiful. The yellowy leaves and the sometimes overcast days. You gotta love October.

I went to South Bank with a couple of mates yesterday evening. It was one of those outings which were decided on the day. It was Friday afternoon, we were sat in sociology, restless and tired and I was fed up of the division of friendship that college has created. I barely see the friends I used to and so, glancing at my friend in the row in front of me I blurted "hey, do you wanna hang out today?" I'm not really a spontaneous planner, so I surprised myself. Usually as soon as the school day ends my headphones pop in and I make my way home without a backwards glance. However that charming afternoon was soaked with bright blue skies, a calming breeze and yellow sunshine, so I thought why not? I left school feeling rebellious and happy and although lectured by my grandma about how its "dangerous" to go uptown (you know how grandmas are) we went anyway. The journey was long but we spent it ranting about the universe and being those typical teenagers who laugh too loudly on the top deck of the bus. We walked along the bank, chatted and took photos and for once I felt happy. The weeks before had been so stressful and it was all a constant jumble of homework and trying to make new friends etc etc. I hadn't seen my friends Suu-ki and Alicja in a long time so it was nice to have some fresh feminine energy around.

These are some pages from this little journal book I bought at the beginning of summer. The last few pages are made up of song lyrics from 3 songs that summed up my day.

first page. It got soaked in my bag in the rain! But it looks really pretty, so I'm happy lol

two very opposing entries

 I've also, thanks to a random playlist recommended to me on 8tracks, discovered some beautiful new tunes. I have made a tiny playlist on 8tracks which you can check out here.

Anyone feeling spooky yet? I certainly am - hey, tell me about your Halloween plans!! enjoy these pointless selfies. Or ignore. Whichever! ~ PEACE OUT lovelies ~