Sunday, 18 September 2016

a4 paper luv

hey there...what a weird month September has been right? Are Septembers always meant to feel like this? idk. Really translucent and vague. Warm and grey, silent and green. idk. Below you'll find a classic and really moody mood-board that portrays some of my past feelings.

(all photos above found on tumblr.)

School is back in full swing and things are getting all "important" and what not. It's actually quite exciting, but the only reason I can say that is because something happened on Friday that made me a changed and less pessimistic woman. I think it was the full moon. I'm not even lying, the past few days before that were absolutely TERRIBLE. It was exhausting and long and I felt useless throughout. Full on back-to-school-blues. 

Then came Friday the 16th and all of my problems were solved. I had no lessons at school, I spent 3/4 of the day studying with friends, then we went out and got chips - the fat, classic, salty-fish-and-chips style chips. Then I went home, relaxed, and in the late evening I watched 'Bridget Jone's Diary' (the first one) - and then danced to music until I was tired enough to hit the hay. What a day. Are full moons meant to provide you with lots of energy? 

this isn't the full moon. it was the day b4 i think.

At the beginning of that week, the weather was all glorious (a bit too glorious for my liking tbh) and Friday just happened to be the day of thunderstorms and rain. Juxtaposed with the sun and the blue skies of Wednesday and Thursday, you'd expect my emotions to reflect the weather, but they didn't, and that's what made everything so magical. Before going to bed I stared at the full moon and was mesmerised for a good five minutes by the lumpy, spooky, mysterious clouds that surrounded it, and just how...full and dazzling it was. I stared at her and she stared back, lifting all of the negativity that was buried inside of me, shining her light onto the dark and damp parts of my soul that were deprived. It was so incredibly magical. (guess you could say i'm a bit of a lunatic now.) 

Anyways, I made a playlist on 8tracks. I haven't made one in a while. It's called 'a4 paper luv' and it's about the weirdness I feel about being in my last year of compulsory education (hence the school-related title?), and it's a really mixed playlist. Give it a listen here when you have the time!

Some of my fave tracks on it are hip hop instrumental type songs - I'm a sucker for the chill, night-time vibes and I think if I had to pick my most preferred genre of music, it'd definitely be hip hop. It never disappoints. Tame Impala are one of my favourite bands - their lyrics always change my life. (just listen to the lyrics in Mind Mischief. *cries*) It's a playlist that you can just listen to when you're relaxing, or writing a blog post, or just writing in general. Sway your shoulders, dream.

I hope y'all are doing good. (look at my musing for this month: 'always push forward'!!) ~peace out~ and c u in the next post! Zoe xo